In the last post I talked about making peace with your body. I want to venture with you the journey I made toward contentment.
So how did I made peace with my body? Well, ironically, by not being careful what I wished for. I didn’t have a very spiritual image of myself in college. It was, in fact, VERY superficial but I never thought that I was good enough. I actually remember wishing for a boyfriend that though that I was good enough. Well, I got my wish. I met a guy who I eventually started dating. He was very interested in me physically, but he didn’t seem interested in anything else about me. Just to be clear, he wasn't a bad man. He was actually a very sweet and loyal boyfriend; his brain just didn't function on an emotional or spiritual level in a relationship, not back then anyway. This frustrating situation was my greatest blessing. This is what finally woke me up. I found exactly the guy I asked for only to realize that he wasn’t what I wanted. Through this frustrating relationship, I discovered the spiritual being that I was. I just got caught in the whirlwind of a superficial world around me. Even after breaking up with this guy, it took me years to battle all of the demons that told me that I wasn't worth anything. I still battle them today, but victory is already mine. You see, the moment I acknowledged that these "I'm not good enough" messages were lies, that's the moment I won the war.
What lies are you telling yourself?
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